My cheeks are cold from a seven block brisk walk. They slowly warm up as i sip the warm soothing citrus tottie.
Its another contemplative day... clouds napping in the sky.
All the bright clothes are fading into grays and soft yellows.
The cities usual rush has simmered into a slight hum as people relax taking in the change of season.
My theme today is blue.
Blue v-neck.
Blue sweater.
Blue hat and scarf.
Blue eyes.
Not to portray any sort of mood but i like the brightness and contrast to the day.
There is a lingering muse in the air. Not pressuring or limited. It just floats around waiting to be called upon.
I think it is most prominent this week.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
10-20-2010
The air feels like my clothes... soft.. part of my body.
The light is as gentle as the air.
I could sleep in this atmosphere.
Nothing is stirring. Nothing draws near.
Its a slow, calm, perfect dusk.
This is what heaven whispers...
..contentment in a sensual world.
The light is as gentle as the air.
I could sleep in this atmosphere.
Nothing is stirring. Nothing draws near.
Its a slow, calm, perfect dusk.
This is what heaven whispers...
..contentment in a sensual world.
Sages
The sun is beaming in through the big windows shedding brilliant light through the room.
Everyone is in their daily zone tending to their thoughts.
As for myself i am at a strange contentment with new light beaming into my own world.
I live in a new world.
A world where i may be able to live the rest of my life.
Everyone is in their daily zone tending to their thoughts.
As for myself i am at a strange contentment with new light beaming into my own world.
I live in a new world.
A world where i may be able to live the rest of my life.
October.
The breeze dances in across the porch matching the soft fluidity of the music playing to my right.
The warm colors of life bask in the glowing sun, all blending together in its own quiet symphony.
If the rest of my days emulate one such as this, I find contentment in knowing the natural love in the air shall comfort my heart.
The warm colors of life bask in the glowing sun, all blending together in its own quiet symphony.
If the rest of my days emulate one such as this, I find contentment in knowing the natural love in the air shall comfort my heart.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Salt Lake City
Boy oh boy. My life just gets too crazy and doesn't want me to blog. Ah well. clearly it only needs to happen once a year or so.
Since i was last on here... I moved back to Utah for family purposes. I went back to my usual working and performing and stressing over family life style. After a year of that and getting wore out.. I ditched it all and moved up to Salt Lake. I am very happy now.
I have been able to step back and take time for me again. I've been able to dive back into art. My spirituality. My friendships. And adventuring. I live with Megan again and we are learning a lot together and trying to make the most out of our days.
Today we went to breakfast and coffee and laughed and played as we usually do. We then relaxed for a bit trying to write songs while enjoying the smell of the heater going and watching the snow. Megan is at work now (lame) and I am listening to holiday music, about read more of a great book that this fascinating boy let me borrow. I am also going to be hanging out with this boy later today. So all in all today is one of the more calm but no less beautiful of my Salt Lake days.
Whats interesting about how my life progresses is that it just keeps doing so. I'll be writing or blogging or hanging out with friends counting myself blessed that I have learned what I have and been where I have been and feel like I couldn't learn more.. but each passing year, or month, or day even, my life takes me directions I never expect and I learn things that I never would have guessed were there. And the most amazing part of it all is I'll only be 25 this year and I have so much more to live and learn.
I get overwhelmed with a feeling of euphoria when I think about how beautiful life is. And every moment is a touching one. Every person I meet is a perfect character in my story. I couldn't be more blessed than I am right now.... but as I say that I know tomorrow will give me more to grin and sigh about.
With this new life up here.. I have more time (for a second) to write. So I hope I can fill you in more. But I don't promise anything haha. As past proof has been... I am much better at writing in my comp. books.
Cao.
Since i was last on here... I moved back to Utah for family purposes. I went back to my usual working and performing and stressing over family life style. After a year of that and getting wore out.. I ditched it all and moved up to Salt Lake. I am very happy now.
I have been able to step back and take time for me again. I've been able to dive back into art. My spirituality. My friendships. And adventuring. I live with Megan again and we are learning a lot together and trying to make the most out of our days.
Today we went to breakfast and coffee and laughed and played as we usually do. We then relaxed for a bit trying to write songs while enjoying the smell of the heater going and watching the snow. Megan is at work now (lame) and I am listening to holiday music, about read more of a great book that this fascinating boy let me borrow. I am also going to be hanging out with this boy later today. So all in all today is one of the more calm but no less beautiful of my Salt Lake days.
Whats interesting about how my life progresses is that it just keeps doing so. I'll be writing or blogging or hanging out with friends counting myself blessed that I have learned what I have and been where I have been and feel like I couldn't learn more.. but each passing year, or month, or day even, my life takes me directions I never expect and I learn things that I never would have guessed were there. And the most amazing part of it all is I'll only be 25 this year and I have so much more to live and learn.
I get overwhelmed with a feeling of euphoria when I think about how beautiful life is. And every moment is a touching one. Every person I meet is a perfect character in my story. I couldn't be more blessed than I am right now.... but as I say that I know tomorrow will give me more to grin and sigh about.
With this new life up here.. I have more time (for a second) to write. So I hope I can fill you in more. But I don't promise anything haha. As past proof has been... I am much better at writing in my comp. books.
Cao.
Friday, May 15, 2009
CALIFORNIA
So.. I've lived here in CA for 3 weeks now and I still love it! I was so afraid I'd stick out like a peach on a cherry tree but I actually fit in quite nicely. I can give credit to my wacky childhood, which helped me be more grounded and diverse i guess.
The Show is going well. We were in the parade yesterday and did "We're All In This Together" like 10 times haha.. good thing its a fun dance! I've made some great friends in the show too. Mainly Danny and Stephanie. Megs and I mixed with those two are quite the funny crew.. or Skunnah's as we've named ourselves.
I know its kind of random for me to go months without blogging and then suddenly dive back in as if everyone should know what i am talking about. Oh well.. Its still fun.
I LOVE the beach!! Its just so chill and warm and you can do whatever haha. We are going on saturday after rehearsal all day.. I'm so excited! The sun, food, the ocean, friends... perfect saturday.
The parties here are way more fun then in Utah. The random parties I'd be invited to there, were small.. with a few bottles of hard liqour, and at most 20 people who divided into their own "clique".. very high school. But the ones here in Cali.. since people are just... MORE of everything haha, they can actually be called a party. Like the one i went to last week. Like 100 people at one time.. but new ones always coming in and out, any drink you wanted prepared by a great bartender (keep in mind this is just at someones house)a d.j., tons of food, and tons of diverse people all talking to each other. My favorite friend made at the party was Boris. He was a 6'10" Russian lol. I seriously had to look up at him. He asked me to teach him how to Salsa lol. Persisting i show him my moves (beings i told him i perfom.. oops). Anyhow.. Steph, Megs, Myself and some other party friends were trying to figure out who he was hitting on.. Me or Megan. We asked him flat out if he was gay or straight. He SAID straight, but by the end he asked me for my number lol. *pops collar*
Also, my first week here I went to Disneyland one day and California Adventure the next. I LOVED IT!! It was just Megs and I of course, but we had SOOOO much fun. All the rides and shows and characters. Definately my kind of place haha. We went on the Indiana Jones ride twice. It would have been more if it hadn't closed down for some reason. We also went on Space Mountain twice. The second time, we kissed right as it took our picture.. it was so cool haha. It looked really good. Everyone commented on it. We totally bought a copy. But yeah I loved every minute of it! I'm totally buying a pass!!
Everday here has a story. But tiping them all would take forever haha. So.. as i have said before but failed to do.. i will try to have more entries. We'll see how it goes though. Too much to see!!:o)
I shall go have more adventures now. I hope everyone can take in everyday and learn all they can from what they are givin. Just as i try to do in my life.
LIFE ROCKS!!
The Show is going well. We were in the parade yesterday and did "We're All In This Together" like 10 times haha.. good thing its a fun dance! I've made some great friends in the show too. Mainly Danny and Stephanie. Megs and I mixed with those two are quite the funny crew.. or Skunnah's as we've named ourselves.
I know its kind of random for me to go months without blogging and then suddenly dive back in as if everyone should know what i am talking about. Oh well.. Its still fun.
I LOVE the beach!! Its just so chill and warm and you can do whatever haha. We are going on saturday after rehearsal all day.. I'm so excited! The sun, food, the ocean, friends... perfect saturday.
The parties here are way more fun then in Utah. The random parties I'd be invited to there, were small.. with a few bottles of hard liqour, and at most 20 people who divided into their own "clique".. very high school. But the ones here in Cali.. since people are just... MORE of everything haha, they can actually be called a party. Like the one i went to last week. Like 100 people at one time.. but new ones always coming in and out, any drink you wanted prepared by a great bartender (keep in mind this is just at someones house)a d.j., tons of food, and tons of diverse people all talking to each other. My favorite friend made at the party was Boris. He was a 6'10" Russian lol. I seriously had to look up at him. He asked me to teach him how to Salsa lol. Persisting i show him my moves (beings i told him i perfom.. oops). Anyhow.. Steph, Megs, Myself and some other party friends were trying to figure out who he was hitting on.. Me or Megan. We asked him flat out if he was gay or straight. He SAID straight, but by the end he asked me for my number lol. *pops collar*
Also, my first week here I went to Disneyland one day and California Adventure the next. I LOVED IT!! It was just Megs and I of course, but we had SOOOO much fun. All the rides and shows and characters. Definately my kind of place haha. We went on the Indiana Jones ride twice. It would have been more if it hadn't closed down for some reason. We also went on Space Mountain twice. The second time, we kissed right as it took our picture.. it was so cool haha. It looked really good. Everyone commented on it. We totally bought a copy. But yeah I loved every minute of it! I'm totally buying a pass!!
Everday here has a story. But tiping them all would take forever haha. So.. as i have said before but failed to do.. i will try to have more entries. We'll see how it goes though. Too much to see!!:o)
I shall go have more adventures now. I hope everyone can take in everyday and learn all they can from what they are givin. Just as i try to do in my life.
LIFE ROCKS!!
Friday, February 6, 2009
All Shook Up Indeed
So I am this really fun show called All Shook Up at the Hale Center Theater in Orem. Its about a small town that is boring and is overly cautious of everything.. kinda. Its almost Footloose in the 50's. Now the 1950's are one of, if not my most favorite of the decades. This show is packed full of good music and dancing and our casts are brilliant.
My reason for writing about this show are the issues it brings to our attention. In it there are struggles with love and racism and all that jazz. They are all issues that of course need attention. All ends well in the show. But again not my real intent for the blog.
There is a part in the show that deals with Chad falling in love with "ED". Now Ed is really the main girl, natalie, who dresses up like a boy to become friends with Chad and get closer to him, as she is in love with him. But yada yada they have tons in common and Chad falls for Ed. Naturally he is upset and weirded out by the whole "Homosexual" feeling. But he decided love should prevail no matter the situation, gender, color etc. So he accepts he fell in love with his friend Ed.. even though he is a boy.(of course he finds out Ed is a she, natalie, and all is well anyway.. but its cool he decides love is love)
Now beings we're in Utah County, we had to cut some lines and revamp the plot and script to make it so people can tolerate it. So now its as if he is still upset that he could ever have homosexual feelings toward his friend and that its all wrong and repulsive. And that in the end its always better if your with a girl. That is the gist of what we changed it to.
It shouldn't upset me. But it does. If anything we should be leaving the script as is to show people love DOES prevail all and we should accept what our hearts want.. no matter color, gender, age, occupation or whatever other excuses people hide.
We DID, however, leave in all the racial lines and plots.. while thats great and interracial dating is great now.. its no longer an issue. Meaning, we can make those jokes and RELIVE how dumb we were for thinking interracial love and marriage was bad.
SO why not start showing people the real issues of TODAY right?
Of course, me being a gay guy in Utah, i feel different than most about the changes in our show. I am not so much upset at the theater or director for the changes- cuz they would keep it if they could.. but the fact that this stupid valley needs everything formed to their way or they can't f***ing function.
I am very happy. I know that God still loves me and i am a great person. Just because i can fall in love with a great guy doesn't make me any less of a human being. GET OVER YOURSELVES ALREADY!!!! My hell.
This is all i am going to say about this. Live your own f***ing lives and accept others for being happy.
The show is also still really good, despite the ignorant changes. Our director is great, the dancing is a blast.. and music, well, its Elvis.. need i say more? no.. BRILLIANCE
blah blah blah.. the end
[p.s... Its also weird cuz i may or may not be "all shook up" for someone in the cast... ssssh]
My reason for writing about this show are the issues it brings to our attention. In it there are struggles with love and racism and all that jazz. They are all issues that of course need attention. All ends well in the show. But again not my real intent for the blog.
There is a part in the show that deals with Chad falling in love with "ED". Now Ed is really the main girl, natalie, who dresses up like a boy to become friends with Chad and get closer to him, as she is in love with him. But yada yada they have tons in common and Chad falls for Ed. Naturally he is upset and weirded out by the whole "Homosexual" feeling. But he decided love should prevail no matter the situation, gender, color etc. So he accepts he fell in love with his friend Ed.. even though he is a boy.(of course he finds out Ed is a she, natalie, and all is well anyway.. but its cool he decides love is love)
Now beings we're in Utah County, we had to cut some lines and revamp the plot and script to make it so people can tolerate it. So now its as if he is still upset that he could ever have homosexual feelings toward his friend and that its all wrong and repulsive. And that in the end its always better if your with a girl. That is the gist of what we changed it to.
It shouldn't upset me. But it does. If anything we should be leaving the script as is to show people love DOES prevail all and we should accept what our hearts want.. no matter color, gender, age, occupation or whatever other excuses people hide.
We DID, however, leave in all the racial lines and plots.. while thats great and interracial dating is great now.. its no longer an issue. Meaning, we can make those jokes and RELIVE how dumb we were for thinking interracial love and marriage was bad.
SO why not start showing people the real issues of TODAY right?
Of course, me being a gay guy in Utah, i feel different than most about the changes in our show. I am not so much upset at the theater or director for the changes- cuz they would keep it if they could.. but the fact that this stupid valley needs everything formed to their way or they can't f***ing function.
I am very happy. I know that God still loves me and i am a great person. Just because i can fall in love with a great guy doesn't make me any less of a human being. GET OVER YOURSELVES ALREADY!!!! My hell.
This is all i am going to say about this. Live your own f***ing lives and accept others for being happy.
The show is also still really good, despite the ignorant changes. Our director is great, the dancing is a blast.. and music, well, its Elvis.. need i say more? no.. BRILLIANCE
blah blah blah.. the end
[p.s... Its also weird cuz i may or may not be "all shook up" for someone in the cast... ssssh]
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